Is it your body fat?

That annoying bulge on the abdomen?

Or the flabby arms?

The lack of confidence?

The excessive binge eating?

The failure of losing weight all the time?

I must, must take charge of my life and start living healthily. No more mindless eating. No more messed up hormones. No more upside down metabolism.

It is so, so hard. It is so discouraging when I up my fitness level, yet I do not see the results. It is just after my trip that I realised how much weight I have gained. Didn’t help that the hotel room had a digital weighing machine for me to exactly see to the nearest point zero how much my weight is.

I need to lose 7 kg. I really do not want a yo-yo weight loss. No rebound. No pre-bulimic feel. No binge eating. No reflux.

What is wrong with me!

A lunch buffet at some Chinese restaurant in Sogo. Love the tomyam soup, the oysters and lala.

Then, a good tasty Taiwanese  dinner at Fye Long in The Gardens.

This morning was the hotel buffet breakfast which was yums. An array of food ranging from Asian, western and even Japanese spread.

Now, the Lounge has a spread of snacks.

Tomorrow, I have a date with two boys (who are attached, by the way) for some lunch.

I think I probably has taken in 5 kilos at least. I definitely need some aid, something that works quick and efficient by next week. It must definitely be fat burners, that is for sure!

No, no. Not any indication that anyone is expecting. I am talking about my flabby, bulging abdomen of adipose tissue. Sometimes, I am confident that I can maintain a healthy body. Other times, gaining weight just make me feel so tired and weary because of the ‘heaviness’ I carry.

Ask me, I have got all the tips in the world when it comes to losing weight, though at times, I do not actually practice what I preach. You know, being humans, we are just bound to fall into temptations. I admit it - I love food. I enjoy eating. I am not like those aneroxic people who cannot take food. But with hormones that do not side on me, I get into trouble when I consume more calories than I burn.

I do wonder - would the day come when I start myself on some kind of weight loss therapy that includes pills? I do not know. I have heard of various weight loss regiment in forms of pills, tablets or capsules - one of them being the Fenterdren. Perhaps one should do some research before purchasing these products. Be a responsible consumer. Lead a healthy life. Your body is a holy temple. Do not spoil it.

It takes a whole load of determination to shed some pounds off. It really wasnt easy for me. It took me several failed attempts, a couple of rebound periods and even now, I am still struggling.

Temptations are bound to come your way.. one very simple one can be just the vending machine on the campus’s fourth floor.

Yes, no kidding! I have been consuming empty calories, fattening, definitely-unhealthy fizzy drinks. So, if there is one easy tip to begin with, it is definitely to remind yourself not to be drawn too much to the vending machine. You end up consuming some high-calorie-calcium-leeching drinks you may regret the very next second.

Well, this serves as a reminder for me. I hope I won’t go running for to find the diet pill when it is too late. Then again, I have tried all other ways to lose weight except taking pills and visiting the slimming centres. There may be a day when I finally realised I need those two options.. I wonder when..