I must, must take charge of my life and start living healthily. No more mindless eating. No more messed up hormones. No more upside down metabolism.

It is so, so hard. It is so discouraging when I up my fitness level, yet I do not see the results. It is just after my trip that I realised how much weight I have gained. Didn’t help that the hotel room had a digital weighing machine for me to exactly see to the nearest point zero how much my weight is.

I need to lose 7 kg. I really do not want a yo-yo weight loss. No rebound. No pre-bulimic feel. No binge eating. No reflux.

What is wrong with me!

I ate that cream bun. And the fried pork. So much of making the fat-burning soup this morning.

You know what, my head actually hurts. I think I am leading such a purposeless, meaningless and slacking lifestyle. I call it my gap year but then I feel so useless at the moment. I don’t even know why I am writing this. I cannot help but feel a little hopeless.

By the way, you can think of fence installation if you want added security to your home. It is really essential. Unless you are thinking of alarm or what not. But fence is good.

I am officially a sneezing machine. I sneeze every 10 seconds or so. Funny how my face is still intact, really. I wonder, what is the root cause of my non-stop sneezing? It is so, so annoying!

If only sneezing can burn calories.. I would be more than willing to sneeze. If one sneeze is equivalent to 1 push up, I would have done God-knows how many times push-ups!

Not to mention, the cough is still there. Annoyance of all annoyances!

I cannot stop sneezing now.I am so annoyed.

To add to my misery, the CNY has taken a huge toll on me. I have been munching on anything edible since the eve of CNY. My throat was irritated at me binging. It gave me sorethroat every alternate day, but I ignore it. I downed vinegar and herbal tea.

The throat finally gave up and recruited the trachea. The trachea created cough so that I would stop eating. I downed even more vinegar, honey, cough syrup and cough candies.

So yes, I am officially sick now. Padan muka.

Anyway, I desperate need a solid plan to start burning the calories I consumed. Should I seek weight loss pill? Exercise? Diet control?

Will update soon!

CNY is different without grandparents, I tell you. It is just like another week of holidays with extra calories minus the working out sessions. I don’t think I like it. The tummy seems bulging and lethargy creeps in.

The only consolation is perhaps Australian Open 2009 going on Down Under and the fact that Roger Federer is still in the draw. He is playing tonight against Juan Martin del Potro, so let’s keep our fingers crossed! We all want Fed to claim another Grand Slam and if you’re against him, I am against you.